One of my biggest insecurities is my shyness and my tendency to draw within myself with I feel that a situation is too public for my comfort. I have little practice in front of a classroom, but I hope that this experiences proves that my passion for English and my genuine desire to teach will not be thwarted by my (sometimes) stage fright.
Throughout high school and college, I have struggled with anxiety about being judged by my peers, even extending to my supervisors and professors. However, there is a feeling of almost superiority when speaking to younger individuals, or those who are less knowledgeable about a particular topic that immediately lightens my feelings of distress. My encounter with the GEP students proved to me that I would succeed as a teacher as long as I focused on the end goal--a classroom of my own.
Next week, I will hopefully start my practicum. There will no doubt be moments when I feel embarrassed or incompetent, but the most important part of this experience will be the lessons I learn about myself and about teaching.
Phil Collins sings, in a song from the Disney animated film Tarzan, “In learning you will teach, and in teaching you will learn.”
I hope that one day I will succeed in both.